Addendum
ED
(Typing and muttering to himself)
I think it's import...ant (strike
strike strikes the keys) to add
that when Jason writes about
leaders and following a lead(er),
he is talking first and foremost
about the dictates of his own
conscience. I am writing him after
all. (Looks up at the catwalk to
see Meryl with her back to him,
curled up and napping.) Also, when
he says his bit about 'like Adolf
before me' the first time, I think
he's right. But the second time,
he might have said 'unlike Adolf
before me' and then continued about
the genuine places of yearning in
the heart. Not that Adolf didn't
have genuine yearnings of the
heart. I'm sure he did. I never
knew him. At least that I'll admit
to here. What I'm not sure of is
how much of his own personal
yearnings, Mr. Adolf was aware.
Again, who knows. I know - because
I'm writing him and my affinity to
my own doppel is intimate enough to
know such things, especially here
in this place - that Jason is aware
of his own yearnings. Becoming
aware. Brutally conscious of the
damages one's own yearnings can
produce on their way to the
surface. You could say Jason is
the villain of his own story. I
want to say 'anti-hero' but that's
one of those been-there/done-that
situations. Every protagonist is
an anti-hero these days. (Stops
and looks up again. Meryl makes a
sheepish wheezing sound). (Whispering)
She sounds like a sleeping Sesame
Street character. Muppets in the
room, ya'all! Muppet Meryl looooms.
(Back to typing) Anyway, Jason is
not the leader of killer soldiers
and he never signed marching
orders to his minions, requiring
the slaughter of millions with a
wave of his signature. He never
roused masses to shout in
adoration as he raised his hand to
the flag. In these ways he is
'unlike' Adolf before him. I
I suppose he worries about being a
bad influence. Fears the damage
he could do to others if he were to
actually try at life. That's
really my addendum here. 'Oh, by
the way,' Jason might write. 'I'm
not a serial killer. But only barely.'
MERYL
Idiot.
ED
I thought you were napping.
MERYL
Yeah, well who can nap with all
that water rising from your
ridiculous blather. Serial killers
and roused army masses. Serious
unfiltered idiot on the march right
down below me, people. Serious.
You're a liar and a thief, Edmund
Strasse. Now... and 'really try' at
life? Oh my stars and stripes I
nearly rained down undigested egg
on you when I heard that. What you
could do is 'really try' to shut up
now and let me sleep.
ED
Fine.
MERYL
Goody.